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Subject:Two Entries in a Row? New record, for here.
Time:10:26 pm
Current Mood:depressedEh....
Well, this is something that I'm not sure if the people I actually know will understand why I care. So you can probably stop reading and go do whatever.


Okay, so Nate/Clu/N.J. Styles/IdioticPiggyBank/whatever else you know him as, well, you know how I've considered him a friend for a while? Like, one of the people I'd talk to if I had a problem, or just ((*gasp*)) wanted to chat? A week or two ago, I don't know when exactly, but I could look it up, during the Mewchu thing on The Cave of Dragonflies, I ended up really POing him. I appolgized, and I was thinking, okay, let's just forget about that. Or something. Because I'm usually like we live 'n learn, y'know? Well, a few days later, he basicly ignores me, I comment to someone else, asking if they know if anything's wrong with Nate. So I learn that he basicly doesn't feel like talking to me, and I'm fine with that; I brush people off sometimes, too.
Well, there's the backstory.
Earlier tonight, I said hi, didn't really say much, and he told me not to post in his sprite thread at all anymore. Which implies that he doesn't like me, is ticked off with me, or something. And now I'm confused. It doesn't exactly help with my mood((check previous day's entry, and that more sunk in today/yesterday night)), and I'm not feeling great, so..... *sigh* Gimme a break, Giant Spork in the Sky or whatever's out there. If there's some supreme being, may they be flipped off. FLIP THEM OFF, I SAY!
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(Anonymous)
Subject:(this is AK..)
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Time:2005-07-27 10:08 pm (UTC)
Join the club.
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(Anonymous)
Subject:I did what I had to do.
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Time:2005-07-28 12:40 am (UTC)
It'll be a few days until you read this surskitty, but I did what I did for a reason. You're one of the only people I care about on the forum, and I knew you've been depressed lately. I know I was probably a burden to talk to since that one night, (you know what night I'm talking about), and I remember you telling me you didn't want to be remembered of that night again. So I decided to cut contact with you, so you wouldn't be remembered. You needed some time to yourself, so I gave that too you.

As for the AK ordeal, all I'm trying to do is prevent another Keczilla incident. I regret the way I acted, I regret what I did, and I feel that it's my fault for everything that happened those weeks. I was influencing bullying against other members, and it took me a while to figure that out. When I found that out, I didn't want to be that person again, so I lashed out. I created that one thread, hoping Dan would ban me, so I could start over, start over from scratch. Be my real self. But being the great friend that he was, he never banned me. I said sorry to those people that were angry with me, I said sorry to Kec...but then he got banned. I should have been the one banned for how I treated him. I should have received some sort of punishment. What you guys didn't know was I made Kec my friend, I PM'ed him, we became friends. He was actually a pretty cool guy. I did this in secret, I couldn't let the group know, so when all eyes were upon me when he began mass requesting in my old sprite thread, I bullied him again...so you guys wouldn't know. I was evil to the kid...I was the devil...I backstabbed him. I was an asshole on the forums, and I hated this monster that I had become.

I decided to change, I changed my name to N.J. Styles, people hardly keep track with name changes, so I figured it was a beginning step to becoming me. The person I was before I joined tCoD. I remember AK IM'ed me a few nights afterwards. I said something along the lines of, "AK, I'm not like that anymore, I'm not going to make fun another member." I just remember him replying, "Well, I liked the asshole Nate better."

That's when I knew I couldn't have a conversation with him anymore, so I cut him off. I then started deleting those topics I made, Clu's Sprite Shredding, etc. Basically hiding the dark side of me.

Every time I look at your sprite thread surskitty, I see me. I see you acting like I was. I negetively influenced you. I feel I was the one who made you act like that to other members. I'm sorry....
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